A Short List Of Things I Want

Dear somebody... wherever you are.

Where are you? Are you real? I spend every day thinking about you, and you don't even exist.
There are so many things I want...

I want to call you at three in the morning and find that you were up late, thinking about me too, and wishing that we were together even if I'd just seen you that day.

I want to catch a bus with you and just take it, wherever it goes, without worrying about the time or commitments.

I want to drive for hours into the night with you, listening to mix cd's on low volume, the rain casting mottled, moving little shadows over your skin as the soft reflection of the headlights pours through the windows, the quiet pitter-patter sound of the rain on the roof of the car all around.

I want to wake up next to you, and feel the heat of your soft breath on my neck and your arms around me, legs entwined, feeling safe and secure beside you.

I want to lie down with you in a wide, grassy field under a tree, the sunlight shining through the leaves as the light breeze causes shifting shadows and colours, while we kiss ever so softly for hours.

I want to stay up all night with you playing Silent Hill, and feeling your heart beat faster when we see something shuffling along in the distance, obscured by the fog.

I want to share all of my secrets with you, and find that they're yours as well, and delight in sharing how we got over our problems in our own ways.

I want to take you in my arms and stroke your hair, and whisper that it's alright when you're afraid and lonely, feeling the warm wet tears from your cheeks on mine as we huddle close.

I want to duck down under the covers with you and lose ourselves in a dark world, imaginations keeping us amused as tension rises until we can't tear ourselves away from each other.

I want to have a heated debate over something, have it almost turn into an argument... have us pause for a second, two, three, and gaze into each other's eyes, see the passion, and just leap at each other in that instant.

I want to go outside in that twilight just before sunrise, where everything is still and no one is around, and just sit.

I want to close my eyes and let myself go, trusting you, having you gently touch me, love me.


I want... you. I need you.

Where are you? Will you enter my life any time soon? Do you even exist?

Star light, star bright...
   Me